What do I really want?

What do I really want?

I have been asking myself this question for a long while. It seemed to me that I always knew what I want exactly and then I could try all my best to reach it in the past. However, I am not very sure what I really want lately.

If you are doing something not what you are really interested in, may be you should call it off when you still can.
If you are doing something not what you really like, may be it is a good time to stop it and get real.
If you are doing something you probably couldn’t handle it well, may be it is better to set yourself free.

I have been thinking of those statements above for a long while since I got back to UK this summer. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I am thinking of quitting doing my PhD very serious lately. I had finished my field work and all I have to do now is writing down the required 80000 words and hopefully I shall get my PhD degree in a year or two. It could be quite ridiculous to quit now but to be honest, I just couldn’t help thinking of it.

What do I really want?
If I just want to teach at kindergarten.
If I just want to be with children.
If I only prefer practical work rather than research.
If I like travelling only.
If I like the life of being abroad.
If …

Then should I still go for PhD? Should I stick on it? Or should I call it off and face the reality?

What do I really want? I think this is the key problem…